day whatever | rottenrobi's Blog

Its a bittersweet day. Its the first day he's been gone all day.
I feel nervous and uncertain, but confident I'm doing the right thing. If only my children could understand. Its hard for them and hard for me.to console.them properly, without animosity . I will try.
We have no car, so were prepared to walk to school. Bills will be partially paid for this month so I can buy food for us.
I can only think about today. Tomorrow I will tackle in the morning. I hope he doesn't try to come home, it will only fuck us up more. I truly want us all to be happy, and for my kids and me, that's without him. They miss him, yes. The also fear him and loathe his drunkenness.
That's it. Its day 1 of the rest of my life.